underneath the stars
I shhhhhh...
that SOMEONE doesn't know
Hello visitors, i am Hong Kun and welcome to my world
glad u have pulled urself up and try to move on ba..maybe..my job is done till now..and this will be the consequence of what my prayer has came true..no matter what..my promise of be there for you will not be broken..
Monday, October 29, 2007
the class was extremely quiet today..guess it was due to the absence of kayden ba..haha..whas..the pillow of the class sia..opps! i meant pillar..haha..so boring..lesson seems so easy but im still moody..wth..so many things are going through my mind
ended up in presentation we found out we have missed doing so many things..seems like my team always failed to complete the PS..really izzit because of me? i wonder and i think im the reason why..
haha..sometimes i dun understand..maybe i dun wana accept the fact but well..some facts are shown right in front of my eyes..haha..maybe all this makes my life so 'beautiful' ba..haha..what m i talking..i also duno..haha..
really felt like no talk for a day..no expression and stuffs and being labelled as 'emo freak' by friends..long time since i last did that..i wonder if i should..
Sunday, October 28, 2007
just say it and i will be there for you
i guess i have fallen deeply
deeper than the past foolishly
i am afraid once again
afraid i will feel the pain
and putting myself with blame
i can only be beside you for now
waiting for the right time which is not now
yet thinking how many things should i do
before you finally say yes i do
i know right now its not easy to let go
but new things wouldn't come when old don't go
i am willing to help you to forgo
just a word from you and i am on the go
to do what you wanted me to
whatever you wanted i promise i will do
even if i can't i promise to try to
just a nod from you
and it will left us two
where dreams and happiness fill us both
first time
10/28/2007 07:29:00 PMwent to pub with evon, yunyann and evon's 3 other friends..well..haha..drunk quite alot ? as compared to before..haha..but im alright! haha..but well someone wasn't..we stayed till 4am plus but im not gonna touched on the in betweens cause its not a good thing at all..
reached home around 530..from hougang walked back home..haha..but i wasn't like tired..sorry that i bluffed 2 person..evon and sebest..haha..thn went to slp till like 10 and i woke up unknowingly..izzit cos of u?
doing nth till 1 plus before i went to play bball with gerald and the others..was feeling funny..side effect of too much alcohol? haha..maybe..thn after a few hours came a grp of strong bballers..haha..whas..was really trashed but have alot of 'KICK' haha..bt was realli damn tired and i promised someone to rest well! so i decided to go home..hahah..
sudden craving for sour and spicy hot TOM YAM SOUP!! haha..random..but realli..wanted the 'SHIOK' feel ar..lol
pls take good care of yourself like what u've told me to..SMILE!=P
you told me ya, you will live strong and prove to him its his loss but when your action mismatch your words?
your 'OK' signal doesn't mean much at all and i meant AT ALL cause even those passer-by can tell you are not let alone your friends. but y are u doing all these to yourself? someone who dun deserve a FUCKing bit of L-O-V-E..
who don't know and feel its hard to let go what u gave most but they just did it but why cant u..their friends are there you have them and lots more. so many people are concern and to help you but if you forever locked yourself up alone in ur dreamy loner, emo-ing world, no one can freaking help u wake up. even 2 tight slaps and a cup of water on your drunken-ed face you will still be what you are now..
not trying to hint or whatever, its pointless to keep urself in this shit as i believe there are many more other guys is waiting for u and they can do better and much better. if its true love, u will just watch him/her go cause u know he/she will find happiness. if u regret, put what u wanted to do/missed to do on the next one. at least u can fulfill what u missed out.
even though this post might made u feel more moody or u might even disagree or hate me for my words but if this might let u wake up or even a little bit, i will just take a risk
"i don't wanna close my eyes, i don't dare to fall asleep
cause i'm afraid something might go wrong babe
and i don't wanna miss a thing"
its just a pain to see this
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
the hand of yours was freezing cold
but its just too far for me to hold
wishing to keep you warm with my warmly hug
but found out we are too far apart
decided to watch over you from far
thus trapping myself behind the bar
looking at your lonely soul
looking someone for console
late in the quiet night
your tears overcame with might
the silent phone call
gives you a wake up call
the race you ran tires you out
but at the same time it stands me out
accompany you till found the right way out
being here for you without a doubt
the time right now might not be perfect
but i am waiting for the time to be right
holding your hands i make things sweet
in our memories we will always meet
~poem for you know who..smile & takecare!
Sunday, October 21, 2007
so long nv ball le..haha..was keeping myself all these days..staying in sch till 6 plus and eat with the others..tengyu, kayden etc..lol..reach home also 7 plus 8 le..after tat play psp till 2 3am haha..but still i think of those stuffs..lol..so sian..the emo season is still around..lol..so boring..
so long since a felt this slight sweetness feel..
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
science center trip
10/17/2007 09:20:00 PM
whas..went to school for a trip..haha..so fun la..lol..though my hair is so sucky..bt i ended up taking so much photos la..really..NO IMAGE FOR ME MAN..haha..but was really fun la..haha..taking photos with qingyuan and tengyu..lol..claribel, linda, yi xiu and karen also went..lol..but we the guys are much more wild-sided today..lol
haha..thn after that the 3 of us went to watch movie at CWP..lol..actually wanted to watch superbad..bt QY can't make it..so we watched C+ dectective starring Aaron Kwok..haha..it was..quite a boring show la..haha..some little parts are a little funny..bt overall..pls dn go catch it in the cinema..haha..
aiyo..emo season again sia..hmm..too bad la evon u woun here..cause i guessed u'll enjoyed the wildness and laughter of us la..haha..actually all the happiness and emo-ness are all up to ourselves..we shld be happy that at least we have the ability to decide by ourselves how we wana live it..there are so many troubles in life and why not stay happier so that life gets more colourful? not to hint anything or wat..bt..if someone really dn deserve it, no use doing so much..though i duno what is really happening..perhaps my 6th sense told me ba..woun it be better to let those unhappy stuffs past by and open up urself so new things ( perhaps better too) to come into ur life? hmm..its just how u choose to live with it..no use cramping urself with all those unhappines..cos i oso came from the same path..haha..oi yunying..hope u see this post too..dn be emo la..treat the 2 of ur lollipops tml! lol STAY HAPPY EVERYONE!!
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
twist and turned on my bed..i couldn't get to sleep..i suddenly tink of you wong xinni..i oso don't know why..but..just missed you suddenly, the time we had fun..do you?
till now am i still in your mind? i really wish to know the answer so as to prove my foolishness all these while..i also do not knw why things just turned out this way..izzit really i did not do enough..i can't felt the importance of me from you anymore..maybe u have found someone that deserved your love more..but..wish you happy ya..
Sunday, October 14, 2007
a poem for you
10/14/2007 06:52:00 PMi know i am not perfect, but i will try to make it right
though i am losing the will to fight, but i will give in all my might
looking out the window in lonely night, i could't find a single source of light
representing my strength, decreasing with my breathe
being to close i am afraid to fall deep in
but an unknown attraction from you trapped me in
i tried to struggle but i am done for it
watching you from far is the only thing i can do
seeing you cry because of him but there is nothing i can do
i know it hurts, but ain't i too feel hurt
passerby days i am counting day by day
hoping the true smile of you will show one day
for everything i said i meant it all
giving you my all is what i asked for
the seasons of love, where my love gave birth
the tears of joy, comprises of you in my life
i give in all, i give my all
i give in my everything yet you said goodbye and that's all
this is for you who know who you are..hee..smile pls! ur on candid camera..
14 oct 07
10/14/2007 06:25:00 PM
went out with mummy and uncle and auntie and ah ma to eat jap food..at waraku..whas..it was quite nice..i ordered a set..got rice and soba..whas..eat till so full la..lol..
but i felt that the jap restaurant at paragon is nicer..lol..but oso more ex..lol..waraku is nice for its noodles..the japanese pasta they are famous for..i din eat it..but i saw my uncle eat the cheese scallop udon..whas...saliva dripping man..lol..the 5 of us spent abt 120 bucks..ex har..bt luckily my mum paid for me..wahahaha..
thn after tat went to orchard to shop by myself..haha..call 2 people to pei me..one battery flat nv reply..one go ah ma hse..haha..ur know who u r horx..dn wana spell ur names out..wahaha..
thn finally bought the green cap i wanted la..haha..and so many other things i wana buy..bt no $$..lol..really must pawn my mp3 away le..haha..the emo pic was so cool la..found the pic yday nite..and i put in the words..lol..yunying oso say so cool lo..hahaha..thn bought the cap thn i thought..whas..i look like that emo guy la..haha..so sian..tml gt sch again..a week..argh..hope i will be fun..lol
13 oct 07
10/14/2007 06:21:00 PMwhas..rotted at home the whole day lo..sian sia..keep on playing with my psp from like 1pm till 2am la..haha..can tell my eyesight will be getting worse..what's more im front RP..haha..
only went out to buy lunch for myself and i nv stepped out of my hse..wanted to play ball but its raining so heavily..play psp bt yet i cant get too far from where i stopped..so sian lahs..hahaha..
Saturday, October 13, 2007
there are so many things i do not know..are there really so many 不能说的秘密 or izzit that so many things that aren't for me to know..i started to qns who am i all these while
pics from Shirley's birthday
10/13/2007 01:22:00 AMwent to clarke quay to eat..lol..was quite nice and the price is reasonable too..lol..thn after that went to find a place to chat and play UNO+ pick up stick..haha..w
as like so DAMN NOISY la..lol..those ang moh in BK kept looking at us..haha..bt i was realli fun la..lol..
thn the next day w66f went to shock the 2 shirleys with birthday cake and we sang birthday song to them la..was like so 'grand'..haha..HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! ------>
Thursday, October 11, 2007
why people is emo-ing?
10/11/2007 09:25:00 PMhaha..interesting topic..my friend asked me this qns today..why do people around us emo? i looked around and found out it was quite true..actually all of us have an emo side..just tat if we show it or not..so just show it out now and than..so whn they have nothing to do..actually i myself is also an emo-er..just that i seldom showed it out..maybe cause of the joke side of me ba..haha..
so..y do people gt emo? izzit just plainly sad and depressed? haha..was so bored that i think of this topic..to me, i felt that mainly it was just the jealousy and 'wanted to win' feeling of us..we tend to dwell on what we can't achieve or what we can't get.
from there we think back to see when we can't get that something. we tend to get frustrated and locked ourselves up to look into our inner world, in there, memories are flashed and the result we wanted is next to one another and this creates the comparison we looked at. once we felt inferior, we will tend to get emo.
so the best way to get rid of it for me will be getting occupied with things and also not to like, hoping for something too much as it will led to deep sadness if we fail it..just treat everything normally and things will turn out well..i suppose..
for those other emo-ing reasons as family and $$, i got no experience so dn wana touched abt that..just..DON"T HOPE SO MUCH..jiu everything OK la!!
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
pics from JingLing's birthday
10/09/2007 11:58:00 PM
<----group and RP photo's ..lol..RP spirit..so many 'GREENS'..lol
haha..played cards , UNO..and the 'punishment 'haha..yaya..we 3 know what is going on..haha..thn the cards they tink of what to draw..and the pics evon,
me and tengyu took on the way home..lol---->
tired-ed
10/09/2007 11:44:00 PMwhas..so so depressed..after 6 months plus of emptiness and coldness..its still continuing..wonder what is wrong with my life..school work and some other stuffs..it just seems like whoever is in my group the work will not be done or finish in a state that im pleased of..wth..for coding i've been struggling to do but whn the other outsource they managed to work out while im still stuck at the middle..
for everything i done, it just seems so fruitless..whn will my success come? "soon it will", dun worry, tml will be a better day" all are craps..
the secret has been told..for i thought i would keep it for long..well..i do not know how to react..lol..maybe you felt the same..
im so tired..putting on the joker mask of mine everyday of my life..who knows the inside world of mine..all those crapping and stuffs..i never like that..NEVER..yet i do that almost everyday..but i know the day since i started putting on the mask it will be difficult to take it out..if really one day i did..i guess it will be..a scary side of me? lol..
i tried to carry on putting on an act..but the tiredness was doubling up each time..i really do not know how long to hold on..lol..who can spot it when im taking out my mask..i really wonder..at times i really just feel like giving up..
whas..above this sentence all seems like what girls will be typing to complain..wahaha..bt..nvm..lazy del..heart pain..type so long le..
anway..had quite a fun time today la..with kayden, zhihui..and one of their friend..forgot her name le..wahaha..went to mac after UT to eat..thn play UNO play till like 1030 like tat lo..whas..so long la..lol..
Monday, October 8, 2007
happy birthday JINGLING
10/08/2007 10:39:00 PM6 oct: haha..msn evon..ended up she called me to pei her go help JL's bf make a "surprise"..lol..whas..so random..haha..think if i nv IM her i oso wouldn't be going ba..haha..we met at 7 at wlands control station..haha..she was late..lol..bt nvm..lol..so hungry..thn we went to kopitiam to eat..lol..both of us din finish the food..wahahaha..
thn we went to took 161 to sengkang thn changed 89 to pasir ris..lol..was quite fast ba..maybe to me..lol..thn we slowly walked in to costa sands..haha..initially wanted to find qiaoping's chalet to put bag first..whas..who knows all there is i duno wan..haha..scare-ed..lol..thn she saw me and evon and gave us cake to eat..lol..
thn after tat we went to the reception there to slack and the time was only abt 10 la! and JL's bf ask us to meet at abot 11..lol..thn we decided to go downtown walk walk..haha..thn ben callled..after tat we met him and follow him to costa sand..we thn sort of struggle to decide if we wanted to go the chalet or do do the surprise with ben..finally we decided to go chalet..haha..
we went upstairs to put our things and we nua there..lol..awhile later JL came and we started playing cards..lol..uno and dai di..wahaha..thn she suddenly showed her BIG blue black..haha..so big la..lol..thn we play..loser eat those mini biscuit buns..thn u stuff in our mouth till the end..haha..thn me and evon wanted to use it as a plaster for JL's blue black..haha..so disgusting..
thn after staying for awhile more jiu send evon go take taxi thn i oso go find qiao ping they all..haha..drink again..lol..till so sleepy..lol..
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
whas..been a few day since last post..haha..whas so lazy..everyday go sch thn go home..wahaha..indeed abit bored la..lol..bt least still got go out wif friends to eat or wat..lol..so tired lo..was so obessed with ming xin 3 que yi..lol..cos kayden showed me 90 tai game..haha..so keep chiong and chiong..lol..bt can oni do till 85 tai..wahaha..not bad le la..lol 2 oct: haha..after sch went to pasar malan at cwp with tengyu..lol..thn we bought rummy burger and sat down to eat..lol..after tat we went to mos to sit down n chat..haha..than i got the video of the feel of us to outing from him and took home to edit and paste together..whahaha..piang..use sony ericsson hp make oso make till 30 mins like tat..haha..tada! finally it is completed..lol..though the graphic aint very good..bt hope u guys like them..lol..